My earlier days have brought me this far. I’m not sure, whether i ve been a joke to everybody who have known me. When talking about happiness, I’dont really know, what’s the thing which makes me happy. I used to say that as long as i suffer, my friends and the people around me are happy, than i’m happy. But it does changed. I want something in return.
Lately the spm result was officially announced. My result was quit OK. Acceptable by a few people, and a few more feels that its quite a failure. Without any work, and allowances, i struggle to survive. A long period of silence, have thought me a lesson to develop myself. For sure, hearing good news from your friend being awarded due to his brilliant result ,makes me feels vey bad. But the pursuit of getting a good result, was the happy part for me.
I’m wandering…. is it good to have the determination, but without any skills. How if you have slowly develop your skills, still determined, but its already too late.Have you ever felt that you are being underestimated by your colleagues and so on? Ive been there. My pursuit of happiness is jut if I could proof to everyone, that i’m not useless and not a big fool.
Its not life without happy, its not Kamal without Sede, its not Syawal without Kua, its not Chan without the name Umaga. Its not me, if its something which is not crazy. ADIOS peace
just a retoric piece of my heart
